I always forget in the morning.
Or when I get to the computer, I am uninspired to write.
This needs to change.
I'm really enjoying college courses. They're going well. High school more than prepared me for community college general ed courses. I hope it continues to be an easy ride.
I want to be done with my 60 hours in 2.5 years. I'll probably have to take summer courses. That's fine with me. I just want to move onto the university.
It's nice going to school for free though. Even our books are free! And the financial aid even covers the school supplies I bought on campus. It's fantastical. hehe.
Work is going much smoother. I am worried about Halloween though. The store is going to be uber busy and I'm worried about cashiering. My fear has always been working with money! I dread that I will give away millions by accident. I'm kind of a spazz.
I never wanted to cashier. I think about it too much. I'm alright now, though. I know I will be fine. I need to have a clear mind and relax. I get very uptight about things. It's kind of silly.
I'm learning a lot about myself.
I need to learn how to trick myself into eating better food and working out.
I do not want to be a typical college kid.
School and work keeps me pretty busy, at least. And work keeps me on my feet all day.
Tony and I are okay.
Actually, it was last Saturday he decided he wanted to 'make things work'. After being a wreck all of Thursday, I was determined to suck it up and move on. Friday I was still a little off, but I vented to my friends and received lots of support. I was on my way to getting over the whole thing. We were friends, we were still talking, things were fine. Saturday I was doing even better, and then he had an epiphany and we got back together. We're strange kids, I know this. But despite everything, we've always been friends. It's never ended on bad terms.
The 25th of this month marks 2 years since we started this whole dating/courtship ordeal. hah.
I'm still worried though. I'm way too insecure, and I don't know where it comes from. My family never told me I wasn't good enough, and I really wasn't bullied or teased in school. So the fact that I have these insecurities seems quite unfounded.
I've had my hair pink since May. This is the longest time I've ever kept my hair the same color! But, thats because pink IS my color. I love it. Its fun. It works. I'm getting my haircut later this week, and then I want my friend to come over and help bleach my roots and add more pink. It is fun being a girl :).
I am off to purge my closet. I need to get some sort of wardrobe thing going on now, now that uniforms are a thing of the past.
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